raise your glass (pink cover, sorta)
so i like a pop song.
sometimes i want to hold on to my anger. sometimes i want it to be justified. sometimes i want to enact justice. sometimes i realize i'm in desperate need of a miracle.
so where is the line between the dust and the plank in my eye?
cause it ain't nothing short of a miracle
that grace falls down as freely and as frequently as i do
cause it ain't nothing but a miracle
years ago and several lifetimes ago, i was making random cold calls for a network marketing company. that lead to some funny, strange, and threatening voicemails. this is an iconic voicemail that was remixed on my new iphone. enjoy.
update: here's the original.
edit: i added the original version of the song at the end.
i am a heathen
i'm a hedonistic fool
for believing
i could be anything usefuli'm a liar
i'm being honest just for once
i'm growing tired
of feigning innocencecause i've been roaming all around in the dark without a clue
for way too long, without You
and i've been forming all these words in my mouth with a sharpened tongue
and a hollow heart, without lovei am a lion
preying on my enemies
there's no denying
just look at my blood-stained teeth i'm unfaithful
i'm an unrepentant whore
i'm so ungraceful
falling face-down on the floorcause i've been roaming all around in the dark without a clue
for way too long, without You
and i've been forming all these words in my mouth with a sharpened tongue
and a hollow heart, without love
at my worst, You came down and rescued me
and at my best i am still so unworthy
and here is my version of the song. it includes an extra verse.
it's amazing that someone as revered as neil young would listen to much less create his own cover of popular songs from will smith and his daughter willow.
as a special bonus, here's my cover of jimmy fallon playing neil young singing katy pery.
it's hard to believe that it's already december and i've been in san diego for over 6 months. here's a song about december.
quest, stars find a home
quest, the stars find a home
a dream to be like them
running down and running out of time
to accomplish all of these things that i've been dreaming of another new morning to brave
the sun shining down trying to break the cold air as it hits me hard
and it hasn't been that long
but it's hard to remember life before i met you when i turn my head
i wanna see the comfort it brings to see you
sitting next to me december stillness in the midst
my rampant mind's restless, i just can't still
and i can't go through the motions anymore
empty words are no longer there, they been filled again i'd give my last breath to you
if i knew it would save you somehow
and you would see me as i really am
minimalistic music, simple words to convey the duality of internal conflict. cause and effect.
cause do i sit here and wait
cause God, i'm so scared
do i step out on faith
scrape off all this rust
and remove this dust
and move on
of being unprepared
i don't know what comes next
i can't see the next step
i just waiti am alone but i am alive
so why can't i say what's on my mindcause nothing comes out
when i open my mouth
just the silent words
that will go unheard
i just starei am alone but i am alive
so why can't i say what's on my mind
i am alone but i am alive
so why do i feel so cold insidecause if i believe what i say i believe
why don't it change what's inside of me
cause if i believe what i say i believe
why don't it change the way i speak
this song gives me much hope. i wrote the music while my g-string was broken and much like i do in real life, i made do with what i had.
::ante meridian::
mourning wakes and dawn escapes
the stained fog that i’ve embraced
restless night again tonight
a weak end to another weekend
where is my joy?
where is my morning?
i am cloaked with the night sky
blinded by everything in sight
oh my heart is running a marathon right now
it won’t be long cause i don’t belong here
where is my joy?
where is my morning?
are things really as they seem
circumstance and evidence of things unseen
what is true and what is real
is more important than consequence and all that is known
this song has always been one of my favorites. one of those songs i have to sing loud and proud, from the bottom of my longs, at the top of my voice. i put a few old favorites on my mp3 the other day and when this came on, my voice came out. i hadn't played this song in months. i got home, grabbed my guitar and recorded this in one take. i know it's not the best, but it felt great recording this.
the real lyrics followed by the real version.
it's hard to see the sun sometimes through these eyes.
it's hard to see the truth sometimes looking through these eyes
but yet i try. windowsill world of mine. maybe sometime i'll get up and go outside.
leap of faith. i could close my eyes and jump.
the hope of someday is safer and it doesn't hurt as much. i stand at the edge of the world and i cry.
the rain beating down on my face as i try
to swallow my fear of failing again.
and wait for the clouds to break for the sun. do you remember the time
when you said you could see the worry in my eyes.
you don't know how hard i've tried to let it go.
let it go, let it all subside. things seem so different when i look into your eyes.
it all seems so simple when i look in from the outside.
everything seems fine. you know me better than i know myself.
and i trust you more than i trust anyone else.
but promises broken are promises made.
at least from what i've seen it all fades away
my limited musical prowess is being exanded ever so slightly with the purchase of a keyboard.
i'm sure mrs lassiter would be proud. those 6 months of lessons 23 years ago have really paid off. thanks mom and dad.
